IVF Update

Well... holidays have got in the way.

I will be starting my last course of IVF after my holiday to Corfu. Injections / scan etc don't seem to fit in well with holidays and my work training courses. I know that IVF is more important but well...it just wasn't working out very well and maybe I had to think about things.

As for egg share - I never filled in the form and never sent it back. I'm not certain its what I want to do. I will take the form with me when I re-start IVF.

I worry that I'm too old that its not fair on the child..maybe I'm too selfish...maybeit was not meant to be... so... there you are...

AF Here..

Well AF here but I have decided not to do IVF this cycle.

There are several reasons - Mostly relating to my holiday. I know I shouldn't be delaying but..may it would do me good.

If I do it this cycle EC and ET will be very very close to me going to Las Vegas - possibly too close as they want me to wait a bit longer before EC. Once I get to LV I wouldn't be allowed to go swimming, in the jacuzzi, rollercoasters, drink...oh and my stomach will look like a patchwork quilt after over 2 weeks of injections twice nightly...

Next problem is that AF will be due in middle of holiday so that wipes out April Cycle..so it must be May...me and my holidays...lol..this means I won't be able to swim and drink on my June holiday...but I don't think I should much more than May....humm..difficult...

Doctor Appointment

Well had my follow-up appointment today.

I like the doctor that I see, Dr Geetha Venkat.

So - Good that I had 1 fertilised embryo - Bad that only 2 mature eggs. Next time they will wait longer before collecting my eggs (though the follicle size should have been ok).

So as of now - Plan of Action - IVF3. short Protocol, however slightly different protocol wth drugs. GnRh ANTAGONIST - (ORGALUTRAN)

350iu Puregon
75iu Menopur

Around these figures...so combined slightly higher dosage than before. Menopur might make my follicles react differently.

The doctor is very keen for me to have 3 embryos transferred and we had quite a long chat. I had to discuss my Las Vegas trip and my worries about flying.

So..when..? that depends on when AF arrives next - Sort of causing myself problems by going on holiday..that might delay it even more - I could cancel Las Vegas but I really feel it would do me good to get away from everything for that week - I know IVF is more important but with everything going on at work, I really do need the break.

As for being realistic- So ok I am paying the clinic, however I don't believe that they would encourage me if no chance of working - They only want good statistics after all!

Donor Eggs - There is a 6-9 months waiting list for donor eggs. So I'm looking at putting myself on it. It is not the way I want to go but at least by being on the waiting list I keep my options open. I think that one of the larger issues may well be money by that stage!

Oh and.. I told my mum at the weekend. I suppose she couldn't take it in. She never said much about it at all.....

Period

Well that is it - No more wondering. Period here. Done and dusted. Have not yet rung the clinic. Will do this later this week....

Actually feeling ok about it all - I think it is easier this time because it was more expected. I'd not felt pregnant...felt very normal.. I don't need to be told that you don't always get symptoms it doesn't necessarily mean anything - I really did know I wasn't.

Tuesday and the weeks dragging

Well...after spot on Sunday nothing happened until today..late afternoon...again possibly TMI...brown spotting..bit of red (tiny)...as you normally do when AF arriving kept going back and forth to the loo to check lol.

Went out with a friend for food, then home for 11pm. Visits to the loo showed no more spotting and no proper period though I keep feeling like its here..I wonder what the morning will bring... now off to sleep.

Sunny Sunday

Well it was a sunny day. Cold but sunny. Went for a walk along the canal from Cambridge Lane to Victoria Park, then had a quick cuppa at Nikis.

When I got back to my house I went to the bathroom - I had bright red blood when I wiped (sorry if TMI). I've occasionally had spotting 2 days before my period is due - So now I don't know whether it is a good sign (implantation, but possibly bit late) or just a way of telling me my period is just round the corner...I lean towards the latter unfortunately...I'll know either way within the next 6 days...

1 More Week to go....

Well..time is crawling by!

It is now 9 days since ET. Nothing major happening - hassle at work usual stuff!

No signs nothing, feeling very un-pregnant! :( trying to keep positive but most of the time ignoring that I've even done anything odd this month!