LWC

Well I finally took the plunge.

I've always wanted children, but I've always thought I'd met "the one", someone that loved me and wanted children with me, the perfect family scenario. Its taken me a long time to realise this just wasn't going to happen - Or at least by the time it did I'd be too late to have children - The added problem being that any single available men I've met have already got children and don't want more, and then more than likely have had the snip.

So on Thursday 18th October I went to the London Womens Clinic. £295 later..internal scan complete, programme agreed and CD3 blood test to arrange. The doctor said I had small ovaries, I never thought to ask what this meant. I've since looked it up and found that does mean I potential close to menopause (I suppose obvious at my age any way!).

Oh and the Progamme - IVF - I could have done IUI - But because I did try to conceve naturally in the passed for 2.5 years the doctor felt the best and most likely treatment to succeed was IVF. I'm going to try and keep positive as there is a 1 in 4 chance of success. Oh and as I'm over 40 they reinsert 3 embies for luck. Lets hope I even manage to get to that stage..

What does this potentially mean? Well I could in theory be pregnant by Christmas! Will be interesting not drinking leading up to Christmas and avoiding questions, though I'm assuming the odd dirnk shouldn't be a big issue....

Why a blog? Well - When I succeed I'd like to share with my child my thought processess and how I came to have them in my life - I know it will be difficult for them not having a none father but I hope that they realise how lucky they are and how wanted they were and how the decision to do this was not taken lightly. I believe we the way the world has changed a child with a father still living at home is more of an exception - This doesn't make it right but I hope it makes it easier.

How I tell a child? At this stage, no idea. I do know that I'd want to bring it up from an early age knowing so that at 13 it has no big shocks to deal with....